I wish is a commonly used phrased isn’t it? I wish this, I wish that, I wish I wish I wish. I wish, that the phrase “I wish” actually worked. I wish that I could go back in time and prevent this whole thing from happening. I wish I dealt with it in a better manner. I know I could have totally avoided this situation, but nothing ever goes how you want it does it? Nothing goes how you intend it to be. I never intended to harm anyone, or get anyone in trouble. I never intended on putting myself in this position. I wish we could be back to how things used to be. I hate that this had to happen. I know soon enough things will be back to normal, hopefully. But it would have been better off if it never happened. I try to look at the bright side of this, but the bad kind of out weighs the good. These past couple weeks have been tough, and it’s getting closer to the end which is leaving me more anxious and scared than ever. I’m scared of the final outcome, I’m scared to be disliked, I’m scared things won’t ever be the same. All I can do is wish. That’s all anyone can ever do. Keep wishing at 11:11. That’s what I’ll do.

I’m happy we’re only getting stronger, and we’re working our way through this. I’m just scared. I miss everything. I miss you. If only you really understood. I love you. 4/5/2011-Forever and ever. <3